How It Works

How It Works 

It comes quietly 

when a grin is on my face. 

A whisper that passes an image. 

kill yourself. see your body there. 

I shake my head, 

focusing on the class around me. 

kill yourself. see your body there. 

My body trembles. My heart and brain 

fear this voice from the shadows. 

kill yourself. see your body there. 

I want to run. 

I want to hide. 

Why me? 

kill yourself. see your body there. 

I feel the tears begin to build. 

Why me? 

Why now? 

kill yourself. see your body there. 

They say its a chemical imbalance. 

I am so lost. 

I think of all of them 

and what their love built. 

It pierces through 

battering the once 

powerful shield. 

kill yourself. see your body there. 

I cry. I go to 

bed as childhood

comforts shield me.

The last line of defense 

as demons sharpen their knives 

to feed off my self loathing. 

kill yourself. see your body there. 

The flood of tears 

blurs and I try 

and reach out. 

The whisper’s voice 

is now so loud 

its screaming 

for blood. 

With the last of my strength 

I go to sleep. 

Knowing this will all repeat.