Right Now

Right Now 

I sit in cold 

In the shadow of a building 

That shows the finer things of life 

Reflecting about what has happened 

What is happening

And what could happen. 

I smile to the beat 

Of being hooked on a feeling

And hope things go well. 

I miss her. 

I am falling for another her. 

I think of that one. 

I realize here on this block 

I am so young 

As well as old. 

I am this fluxing present 

An egnima to the worlds around me. 

I keep having dreams of your blonde hair and coral lips. 

Nothing that is sexual 

Just being happy with you 

As I learn to accept 

The ghosts of the others 

That dwell in my heart. 

Everyday seems to be another day 

That a part of me peels off 

To reveal some new side of me 

That I try to live with. 

Right now

I think things are changing 

And soon 

Very soon

I will be the one that will be given the 

Choice 

The burden 

The responsibility 

Of making a few choices 

Life altering choices 

A reality. 

With a smile 

And a shiver in the cold 

I look at the starless 

Polluted skies of Korea 

Knowing that above the haze 

There are stars aligning 

Just for me.